Engaged!!!

You are a provider Lord, and you know just what I need. I knew you were working on my heart last Saturday night. I felt my heart stirring and growing anxoius about being married and wondering and longing if my time would ever come. Becuase of my affliction, I was drawn to you Lord. You taught me to find all my worth, love, beauty, fullfillment in you. I called on you for help in my distress and you came, your heard my cry and you came right away. Lying in my bed, unable to sleep, I felt, literally, your peace come over me. I felt you hugging me Lord. Thank you so much for coming to my rescue and being there for me. I trust in you. Last Sunday morning, I was struggling with the same feelings of despair. I got to church early and began crying out to you again in my journal. I remember, I prayed that you would speak to me through Kyle, that you would teach my heart and calm my heart. And you did! Many times, I was brought to tears that Sunday morning by the things that Kyle said. I knew you were speaking directly to me heart. Especially when he said, "For those of you who feel the Lord has given you a desire in your heart to be married......sleep soundly tonight becuase he will fullfill that desire, in His timing." When you spoke this to me through Kyle, I was floored, I wonder if anyone else even heard that, I feel like he said that directly to me. You are so amazing. I know you care so much about me that just like in Psalms, you come to rescue those who love you and call out to you. You are my Savior, Jesus. I praise you. Well, as if that wasn't enough ways to show me that you are there for me......I got engaged this past weekend (on Valentine's Day)! I know now that the affliction and despair I was feeling all the sudden when I felt like I had my emotions under control last weekend, was to remind me of how wonderful you really are. I was brought back down to a low emotional point where I was hurting to be chosen, to be engaged to be married. You took me through the despair so I could see and proclaim of you awesome miracle and your power. You truly do lvoe me and care about every detail of my life. I needed to see this and seek you for all before getting engaged. Thank you so much for Blake, I know you have made us for each other. Please, Father, teach me how I can love him like you do, more and more each day. And Lord, I pray that you will always stay in the midst of our relationship, never leaving the center of our lives. We need you Lord, don't let us forget that. Thank you also Lord for my sweet friend Sarah! Even though she found out about our engagement before the rest of Phi Lamb, you planned that, you knew I needed her excitement since I'm not getting if from my family. I know my family is going through a hard time with my mom's failing marraige and my dad's recent unemployment, but I know you will never leave our side. I trust you Lord. I trust that you will provide for my family and for mine and Blake's wedding. Thank you for being you. You are just what I need. You fill me completely Jesus. I praise you!