Heavenly Father,

I praise you for your mercy. I don't deserve any of it. Father thank you for the strength that you gave me, allowing me to run, and finish the Bear-A-Thon with relative ease and enjoyment. Thank you for the ability and the talent to run! It was so fun! Thank you also for sweet time with Blake. Two weeks is a hard not seeing each other so I am thanful that we were able to reunite, even though for a short time. You are such a provider, Lord, and you know just what I need. I pray for endurance to finish this semester well and to your glory. Lord, please make the wait for summer very short. Father, I pray that you are also continually working in mine and Blake's hearts and preparing us for our upcoming marraige. Thank you for him.

Engaged!!!

You are a provider Lord, and you know just what I need. I knew you were working on my heart last Saturday night. I felt my heart stirring and growing anxoius about being married and wondering and longing if my time would ever come. Becuase of my affliction, I was drawn to you Lord. You taught me to find all my worth, love, beauty, fullfillment in you. I called on you for help in my distress and you came, your heard my cry and you came right away. Lying in my bed, unable to sleep, I felt, literally, your peace come over me. I felt you hugging me Lord. Thank you so much for coming to my rescue and being there for me. I trust in you. Last Sunday morning, I was struggling with the same feelings of despair. I got to church early and began crying out to you again in my journal. I remember, I prayed that you would speak to me through Kyle, that you would teach my heart and calm my heart. And you did! Many times, I was brought to tears that Sunday morning by the things that Kyle said. I knew you were speaking directly to me heart. Especially when he said, "For those of you who feel the Lord has given you a desire in your heart to be married......sleep soundly tonight becuase he will fullfill that desire, in His timing." When you spoke this to me through Kyle, I was floored, I wonder if anyone else even heard that, I feel like he said that directly to me. You are so amazing. I know you care so much about me that just like in Psalms, you come to rescue those who love you and call out to you. You are my Savior, Jesus. I praise you. Well, as if that wasn't enough ways to show me that you are there for me......I got engaged this past weekend (on Valentine's Day)! I know now that the affliction and despair I was feeling all the sudden when I felt like I had my emotions under control last weekend, was to remind me of how wonderful you really are. I was brought back down to a low emotional point where I was hurting to be chosen, to be engaged to be married. You took me through the despair so I could see and proclaim of you awesome miracle and your power. You truly do lvoe me and care about every detail of my life. I needed to see this and seek you for all before getting engaged. Thank you so much for Blake, I know you have made us for each other. Please, Father, teach me how I can love him like you do, more and more each day. And Lord, I pray that you will always stay in the midst of our relationship, never leaving the center of our lives. We need you Lord, don't let us forget that. Thank you also Lord for my sweet friend Sarah! Even though she found out about our engagement before the rest of Phi Lamb, you planned that, you knew I needed her excitement since I'm not getting if from my family. I know my family is going through a hard time with my mom's failing marraige and my dad's recent unemployment, but I know you will never leave our side. I trust you Lord. I trust that you will provide for my family and for mine and Blake's wedding. Thank you for being you. You are just what I need. You fill me completely Jesus. I praise you!

Question marks...Part 2

I feel like I should re-post "Question marks"...this happens way too often...a new idea or a new opportunity that captures my attention and makes me try to plan again. I know you are my planner Lord, you are in control of my life. Lately, I've been thinking of going to graduate school! I've looked online at the details and the possibility has gotten me really excited. I only want graduate school in my life Lord, if that's your plan. Father, thank you for my creativity and my imagination but sometimes, it can really go wild. When this happens, I lie awake at night and can't sleep just thinking about what will happen next in my life. Why do I always feel like I have to know all the answers about my future? And why do I always feel shortchanged in my relationship because we're not engaged or married? Lord, help me to settle down, to calm my heart and my anxiousness. I don't have to grow up so fast. Lord, help me to enjoy each and everyday. Thank you for my precious friend, Sarah! She is such a blessing to me Lord. I pray that you will bless our friendship for many years to come.

"Come to me all you who are weary and I will give you rest."- Jesus

I am already growing weary. Each of my classes have daily assignments and I feel like I am doing all I can do just to stay on top of things. This coming weekend is much needed. I need rest. I am enjoying learning and the opportunity to do so but it's becoming really draining already. Lord please give me strength to do all I do as if it's only for you and your glory.

School Starts Tomorrow!

Thank you so much Father for how you have already blessed me this year. Thank you for my new job and my new friends, for Sing Alliance, and for my new classes. I pray Lord that everything I work at this semester that I will work with complete diligence as if I am only working for you. Lord, I pray that in the midst of all my business, that I do not forget who you are. You are my provider Lord, my comforter, and my friend!

I have really been blessed this holiday season. Time is running out and I am sad. I feel like I have not spent my time wisely some days. All I really want to do is spend time with family and friends! But..I only have until Sunday night, then I am leaving on Monday! I am excited that school will be starting soon and that I am going to be working at the bookstore! Last night was fun and I was really proud of the decisions that Blake and I made about drinking. In the morning, it's just not worth it! The fireworks were beautiful and the fellowship was fun! Happy New Year!